5:32 PM CST
hospitalvespers replied to your photo: i’ve been re-reading a really terrible book series…
god i fucking LOVED THESE BOOKS and i always worry about whether it shows in my shit and whether that is good or bad. but yes. the best. and the worst.
for a really really long time, Sarah and Jamie were named Selenae and Rolan
1:30 AM CST
a message from hospitalvespers
you guys are introducing me to all sorts of cool guitar people!
thank you thank you gosh
I will be very kind to all of you and not show you any of the many terrible owen pallett themed pieces I made for my AP studio art concept
4:10 AM CST
man idk, i don’t think any of your characters are childish!! they all seem really well rounded and thought out to me
aw thank you ;_; that means a lot coming from you. I think a lot of it is just that I’ve fixed a lot of what was really glaringly wrong with some of them but that’s left me with big spots of storyline that are obsolete now and I’m really stuck because I have trouble knowing where to tweak and where to just start over from scratch.
It makes me want to make up new people entirely, but I don’t really know… where to start because I’m just so, so drained, and I do have a lot of emotional attachment to the old guys so it’s not like I want to abandon them forever… ugh
The characters I feel most confident about are the ones I made up most recently (spifflicated!) but those came out of an RP where I could bounce ideas off people. and like a lot of what I actually did in the RP was shit hahaha but it helps to have other people to build off of and get re-energized by.
i’ve been having a hard time focusing on anything lately too!! boo. maybe if you have a series or movies that inspired you to make your characters in the first place, do a rewatch?
yeah maybe some of this stems from the fact that so many of my characters are super old so I feel like there’s a lot about them that’s still really childish
like, I was inspired by old anime and stuff that I think holds up today, but I built off them in ways that missed the point and then I had to backtrack and fix everything to make it not
and also I had a lot of plotlines where the story was literally just “I’M QUEER, IT HARD. THAT’S IT THAT’S THE STORY” and that has a place but that’s not really the kind of story I want to tell anymore because it stopped being as interesting when I finished puberty lol
Please Save My Earth is probably my biggest influence for the fantasy shit (and I am overdue for a re-read on that) but what I love about it the most has never been something I’ve been able to reproduce and it’s just frustrating
3:29 PM CST
how did you get it to stop?? half my dash is people affected by this )’: if i can let them know how to fix it i’d be grateful haha
I just stopped everything, changed my pass, and then deleted everything from the mass editor. I think I saw somewhere that deleting an individual post will make you reblog more stuff but I can’t confirm or deny that.